Chances

He called me around three thirty,

I wonder what time it is now?

We've been walking for what seemed like hours.

He took my hand with his and we strolled through the dense forest.

About three hours later he came to an abrubt stop.

He stood facing away from me for a good five minutes before looking at me again.

His eyes were very serious but I could still see the softness beneath them

My breathing suddenly went uneven.

What was happening?

He walked toward me and looked me dead in the eyes.

Took a deep breath and said,

"I want to be with you."

"You are."

"...No. I meant I want to be with you forever."

My heart stopped and my breathing was cut off.

I've always loved him.

And I did think about being with him forever.

But now that I had a choice I didnt know what to do.

I was never good at taking chances, but those were different than this.

This isnt figuring out which shoes I wanted to wear.

This is a commitment.

And Im not sure I could handle it.

But then again....

I love him so much and he means absolutely everything to me.

Maybe I could do this.

Maybe for once in my life I could take a chance.

And so I did.

"I want to be with you too....forever."

I breathed in some air but quickly had it taken away.

And before I knew it, we were on the ground holding eachother tighly.

We started to laugh and then I knew it.

I can commit to this.

And all I had to do is take a simple, little chance.

Birds.

I'm falling now.I'm falling and I'm afraid I'm never going to land.But at the same time I don't want to land.I want to keep falling in the darkness because my mind is set on fear and not on you.I rather fall into a deep horror than land and have to think of the one I once loved.But it's your fault I'm falling in the first place.Your the one who paralyzed me with your words.'I met someone else'.And you sent me falling into the dark,numb shadows.Unable to speak.Unable to hear.Unable to move.But my thoughts are racing.Emotions rush through me like a fierce flame.Anger.Sadness.Betrayal.Confusion.How could you do this to me?And then I landed.And all I felt was pain.A thought went through my head,an odd thought.I wish I could be a bird.They can fly away when ever they want and don't have to listen to anyone.They don't have to worry about getting their heart broken.They're free.And I envy that freedom.And I hate you for what you did to me.You cast me into the shadows and took my freedom.Oh...I wish I were a bird.